One of my check list for the holiday is "Going somewhere new every week". It really sounds kind of easy, you know, public transport here are great and there are a lot of hidden places inside Melbourne region. But there are always excuses, I might be tired after work, I might not in the mood to dress up, I might want to live on bed for the whole day... It is weird how you can easily give things up and blame the pace of life, it makes me wonder what kind of person I will be when I really get a full time job and bear the responsibility as a fully grown-up independent woman. I guess only time will tell.
So I went to Half Moon Bay on Sunday last week. And since I don't have to work on Wednesday, I got on the nearest train and hop off at random stop and walked around a bit.
As I said to anh Dung who kept asking me why I don't want to meet people, I really do find human fascinating, but I am the awkward type who find it hard to feel really connected to others. Like, what can you talk about, how do you talk and look at people in their eyes simultaneously? (I can't, seriously). Antisocial much? I know I have to fix it, and I know I need to be more open, talk more and all that, it's just not THAT easy, nottt easyyyyy.
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I would laugh if I was around this place at that time. A girl standing alone, running in super slow motion to get a photo to express her runaway-mood, wicked. |
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OMG how did I forget to write about MUSE CONCERT LIKE OMG IT WAS THE TIME OF MY LIFE. I cried a bit and screamed and danced like no one was watching (there were people behind my seats tho, poor you, sorry not sorry). Thanks God I went alone so no friend can see me in my overly unstable emotional state lol. But it was GOLD and Muse were just fucking perfect. Their live performance was so so good, I just wish I had purchased the standing-ticket tho my seat was so far away from the stage :'(
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Oh and I am out of Mann up, temporarily at least. And to be honest I don't know what to feel about it. I guess I am just too busy figuring myself out at the moment to make inspiration for others. Mann up was something big for me, the perfect starting point, but I can never see myself go far with it. I hope anh Lu and everyone will come back stronger than ever.
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WHAT I HAVE WATCHED:
1. Perfect Blue:
From Satoshi Kon the legend of dream and reality. I have watched some of his works, including Paprika, Tokyo Godfather and Millennium Actress, and now Perfect Blue and every single one of them amazed and moved me in such an incredible way. His films usually deal with the blur line between dreams and what really happens in real life, where the lines are so thin that leads to chaos. No wonder he had inspired so many great films that I absolutely love like Inception or Black Swan (there are actually a lot of discussion about this, like who copy who and all that. I mean, who cares, they are all really good movies and explore the character in different ways, just enjoy it people!)
Perfect Blue is about Mima, a pop star idol that decided to drop her idol career to become an actress. As she moving further and further away from her past, she is more and more emotional unstable and can't distinguish between the movie she acted and the reality. I can't say more about the plot, but it is really really fantastic and intense. I have always have a thing for movies about double personality and pshychiatric matters (to name a few, Black Swan, Fight Club, Hide and Seek, Requiem of a dream are always on top of my favourite) because it is so dramatic, bizarre and interesting to watch people reaching the limit of their own minds and fighting with themselves. On top of that, as I said, Satoshi Kon is a magician with fantasies and reality, so what can I say? GO WATCH IT.
1. The Wizard of Oz:
Well why would I chose an old children movie? It was from a TED talk I watched some weeks ago that was talking about feminism and how woman were portrayed in children movies. Feminism is something I am interested in and that guy talked about how rare it is for movies nowadays to have a strong lead female character (I am not talking about strong as in big and have a warrior costume and can fight, I am talking about female fellows who have her own characteristics and not fear of it, simply as that). In the speech, he talked about how every main characters in The Wizard of Oz were females, including Dorothy, the Good Witch, and the Green Bad Witch (sorry guys I am not good with names..) and what Dorothy did to rescue herself was to be kind and be friends with everyone and be the leader. I think it's very different from how in Twilight where Bella sat by the windows for several months to wait for Edward; or even how Katniss have to use violence and sacrifice lives in The Hunger Game. Yeah, so I watched it.
You must have known the story, Dorothy entered a magic world, she made friends with a Scare-crow who wanted a brain, a Tin-man who wanted a heart and a Lion who wanted courage, and so their journey to meet The Wizard of Oz who will granted their wishes. And after all what they want were always there, in themselves. It's just a very old tale that was made with lovable, brave and kind characters (The Lion was soo funny hahaha). It's the perfect educational movie that kids need to grow up watching, where there is a world with acceptance and equality for all kinds, where fairness and kindness wins and where you know "there is no place like home" *imagining me in that soft educational motherly voice, get it? get it? no? okay*
2. Like Crazy:
I have been seeing this film all over my Tumblr dashboard for so long, and my movie-soul-mate loves it, so why not? But it was not something I expected it to be.
It was about Anna, an British exchange student felt in love with an American guy. There love blossomed beautifully and perfectly, yet with Visa reasons they have to separated over and over again. The movie dealt with how their love struggle with long distance, jealousy and all that. For me it's somewhat like 500 days of Summer or Blue Valentine, not as quirky as Summer and not as depressing as Blue Valentine, but it also feel like a sad cold truth about love, that feelings can fade, and that love is not always forever. I am a sucker for romance, and I believe in something called True Love no matter how sến it is, so Like Crazy was like a gentle punch in the face of a hopeless romantic like me.
The movie was shot by a normal not-fancy camera, and the entire thing was un-scripted (as in the characters make up their own lines) so it felt really real, like you can see that couple in any rounds of friends you have. I still think it lacks of something, but maybe it's because I expected something different in this, so personally it is not something I would watch again.
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WHAT I HAVE BEEN LISTENING:
Not that I expected anyone to read this far haha but thank you very much you cute creature. Then let's me tell you something personal. This week has been tough, and my mood has dropped to the point where I started questioning and doubting every single thing about myself. It's when I feel ultimately empty and worthless. You know, just a 20-year-old-crisis. I can't say I am out of that feeling and so in love with myself yet, but it gets better, it always get better.
Whenever I feel depressed I would go to Radiohead. Man, their music has the effect that makes you feel like melting and evaporate and then completely disappear, just exactly what I need. Creep is my favourite, and I often think of it as a "song of my life" for feeling like an outcast and never be good enough for anything or anyone. Meh I will stop talking about me now, enjoy the music x
