You would not want to know the amount of unfinished drafts on this blog, hidden notes in my phone and just words scattering everywhere all over the space in my head that I have been meaning to let out. And I have been more and more bothered about how I can never have the courage to publish them but leave them floating and hidden from everyone. I don't really care if someone reads it, because after all only those who really want to know me read this blog. But just the idea of being honest and completely accept who I am is somehow terrifying.
It is not like I will immediately be able to post 10 Facebook statuses a day about, well, life. Or post my selfie on Instagram hoping to get likes. Though I still think it is kinda annoying, now think about it that kind of thing is truly something I can't do, and in some sense it kinda takes courage and a lot of self-love to do that. Unfortunately (and fortunately to my cyberspace friends), I don't have that.
I started this blog with the idea that I will update it with my adventure in Melbourne, or just life in general, like a practice place for my silly writing. And along the way I got interested in movies, and then a little tiny bit of fashion. And somehow to this point there are strangers reading my blog and showing me their love, which I really am soooo grateful about. And there are also friends who say that since I have stopped sharing my thoughts here they don't read it anymore (Yes, you, T, blehhh).
I used to have the dream to make my blog known to others than my friends, that's one of the reason I started blogging more about movies and fashion, to be less-personal. But I guess if I can't even be honest with the blog then what is the point anymore. As some quote on Tumblr "My thoughts are so secret I share them with 17000 people on the Internet", I will start sharing more here, as a way of being more honest with myself. After all talking to a laptop screen is what I do all day anyway haha. It is soothing to know that there is no pressure on finding the right answer, or to put the question on the people you trust enough to talk to. ISN'T THE INTERNET BEAUTIFUL?
Well that's the end of my rambling. Now let's talk a bit about things and then I will awkwardly roll away as usual.
1. Something that made me happy:
Do you have that person who has this special connection with you even though you guys basically never talk about anything? L is that kind of person in my life. We never talk, chat on Facebook even, but in some weird ways we understand each other. I love you dearly L.
2. I got invited to a friend's birthday party and the theme is gonna be the 1920s! My first dress up party ever weeee. I am gonna go hunting for a good dress and some accessories tomorrow at some thrift stores around the neighbourhood. I will make a blog post about that too ughhh Khoai got invited to a party and will socialise with human this is so excitingggg ~
3. One of my best decision in Melbourne is to go to brunch every Friday with Lan Anh. We have done this for just two weeks but everything is so great so far and we get the chance to explore Melbourne and see it as something more fun and interesting than merely walking around the CBD. Last Friday we went to this place in Brunswick and I had the prettiest egg ever:
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